Well, I found this when I was looking around for different online support groups. I think I have given up on anyone here being any sort of support (and when I say that, I have specific wives in mind). I didnt find a group though, but I’m sure I will. Hopefully sooner than later. I heard from James today, which made me a little calmer, but he had news of his deployment that was at the very least, unnerving. Turns out everyone else there has a 12 month deployment, and he only has a 6 month deployment. I’m still unsure on if he has met anyone that will be working with him, but he said that is deployment papers were all sort of messed up. Anyways, he’s not staying at Bagram like we thought, he’s either going to FOB Abad (which, oddly enough was where he was supposed to go if he had deployed with his FA battery before) or FOB Salerno. At least at Salerno he will have some friends, whom he actually likes! I just wish I had more experience to let him know that I supported him in this, even if he was gone longer than 12 months, and that if it came down to that, everything would be ok. Anyways, Britt is planning on moving in, not this weekend but next. I’m excited about that, it’ll give me someone in the house so I wont be so on edge all the time. She wants to paint the room, but I havent decided how I feel about it. She’s bringing her stuff though, so I’ll have more help around the house and she said she’d help me with all of this, so that will be nice. I have babysat today, and I’m going to go back and watch a little 7 year old boy, tomorrow and Friday. If it wasnt so early, it wouldnt be bad at all! But its got me in the zone to clean. Since I’m making the extra money, I’m slowly getting in the groove of buying some groceries here and there, so food at home is starting to appear. I figure if I can get the house in nice condition and no laundry, I’ll treat myself to a nice movie Saturday morning. I dont have much money to waste, but I figure  a matinee movie wouldnt be bad. It’ll get me out of the house and hopefully raise moral. I also need to get out of the habit of eating out and start going to the gym. I’m going to still try to apply to other local business’ so I can get something going. I really do like babysitting for the lady I am though, she’s really nice. She’s going through a divorce and has 5 boys!! I did her dishes to test the water about if it was ok to clean her house or not. I was just so tired I couldnt help myself. I havent been sleeping amazingly, I wake up on the hour almost every hour at night. I cant sleep with out the tv on, so I’m still dealing with that. I took a nap this afternoon, that went over ok. I left the dogs out though when I ran to the store, since James wanted me to try to leave them out for added security. Well I had tried a few days ago when I had ran out to grab some dinner, and everything was fine. Well they decided to chew my sunglasses today. There were shards everywhere. I dont know what to do with them! They’re constantly eating things that are sharp and I’m terrified that they’re digesting these things that could cut them on the inside. I have no idea what’s going on with them. I do know that they miss James TERRIBLY. They’re constantly running around the house sniffing and looking. They went nut when I brought his overflow bag and his clothes bag into the house. I wish they understood me when I told them it was ok. It worse than having a kid to explain it to, they dont understand and they just look at you with these sad eyes. It really breaks my heart.

Well, I found this when I was looking around for different online support groups. I think I have given up on anyone here being any sort of support (and when I say that, I have specific wives in mind). I didnt find a group though, but I’m sure I will. Hopefully sooner than later.

I heard from James today, which made me a little calmer, but he had news of his deployment that was at the very least, unnerving. Turns out everyone else there has a 12 month deployment, and he only has a 6 month deployment. I’m still unsure on if he has met anyone that will be working with him, but he said that is deployment papers were all sort of messed up. Anyways, he’s not staying at Bagram like we thought, he’s either going to FOB Abad (which, oddly enough was where he was supposed to go if he had deployed with his FA battery before) or FOB Salerno. At least at Salerno he will have some friends, whom he actually likes! I just wish I had more experience to let him know that I supported him in this, even if he was gone longer than 12 months, and that if it came down to that, everything would be ok.

Anyways, Britt is planning on moving in, not this weekend but next. I’m excited about that, it’ll give me someone in the house so I wont be so on edge all the time. She wants to paint the room, but I havent decided how I feel about it. She’s bringing her stuff though, so I’ll have more help around the house and she said she’d help me with all of this, so that will be nice.

I have babysat today, and I’m going to go back and watch a little 7 year old boy, tomorrow and Friday. If it wasnt so early, it wouldnt be bad at all! But its got me in the zone to clean. Since I’m making the extra money, I’m slowly getting in the groove of buying some groceries here and there, so food at home is starting to appear. I figure if I can get the house in nice condition and no laundry, I’ll treat myself to a nice movie Saturday morning. I dont have much money to waste, but I figure  a matinee movie wouldnt be bad. It’ll get me out of the house and hopefully raise moral. I also need to get out of the habit of eating out and start going to the gym. I’m going to still try to apply to other local business’ so I can get something going.

I really do like babysitting for the lady I am though, she’s really nice. She’s going through a divorce and has 5 boys!! I did her dishes to test the water about if it was ok to clean her house or not. I was just so tired I couldnt help myself. I havent been sleeping amazingly, I wake up on the hour almost every hour at night. I cant sleep with out the tv on, so I’m still dealing with that. I took a nap this afternoon, that went over ok. I left the dogs out though when I ran to the store, since James wanted me to try to leave them out for added security. Well I had tried a few days ago when I had ran out to grab some dinner, and everything was fine. Well they decided to chew my sunglasses today. There were shards everywhere. I dont know what to do with them! They’re constantly eating things that are sharp and I’m terrified that they’re digesting these things that could cut them on the inside. I have no idea what’s going on with them. I do know that they miss James TERRIBLY. They’re constantly running around the house sniffing and looking. They went nut when I brought his overflow bag and his clothes bag into the house. I wish they understood me when I told them it was ok. It worse than having a kid to explain it to, they dont understand and they just look at you with these sad eyes. It really breaks my heart.

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